im 16. i have a lot of friends. they all love me for me being myself. my friends are there for me. so is my family. im a time bomb but im fun. i love being in school, i write for my excitment.

issues

so theres a gilr. a girl that is Quite. zshe doesnt talk to many people. she is bascaly alone. many people dont know her and the few that do. know only a bit.

well this girl, has issues. and not just a few but a lot. she has CPS over, her father fights with people. she stresses out. her eating disorder comes and goes. shes tired of her issues and wants them to leave.

her friends that know her know that she has these issues. they help as much as they can. she loves them for doing that

i miss the old you. not the new you.

“If you fall asleep
on my chest, will my heartbeat
soundtrack your dreaming?”
– Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

(via imdonewiththisblog)

is it time for my life to end? or is it going to get better?

the girl

the girl walking down the hallway in school. she looks all good but really shes not. her boyfriend broke up with her, not to add to all of it thats going on with her life. she walks with scars on the inside of her body. she thought they were all gone when she was with him but no they came back. all she can think about is her past and not the present. she writes and writes but it all doesnt make sense.

she dropped her note book on the floor in front of her ex. she doesnt know that she dropped it. he picks it up and starts to read all of what she wrote. she passes him a few minutes later. she looks happy but like she lost something and cant get it back. what she wrote in her note book made sense to him. he understood it all. he cought up to her and handed her notebook back to her. all she could doin respond is cry. crying like someone died. he said he was sorry and that he still cares about her but he is in love with another girl.

she walks away and looked in her notebook because there was a page folded down. she looks at it and i was a drawing. he drew in her note book. it was a rose with throns and a heart in the backround. with the words I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NOMATTER WHAT. she starts to smile.

sad

Boys friend: Hey, he likes you, you want to go out?
Girl: Uhm.. no.. Sorry.

8th grade:
Boy: I like her and I want her to know.. will you tell her?
Boy’s friend: Sure.

*A few minutes later*

Boy’s friend: He likes you and he wants to go out with you..
Girl: No, I like someone else.

That summer:
Boy: I like her and I want to tell her.

*A few minutes later*

Boy: I like you and I want to go out with you.
Girl: No, I just want to be friends.

Few days later:
Girl: He likes me but I don’t like him.
Girl’s friends: I don’t think he will bother you again.. I dare you to go out with next guy to ask you out.
Girl: Okay.

The next day:
Boy: I really like you will you please go out with me..?
Girl: Yes.
Boy: What?!?
Girl: Yes.
Boy: YES!

*Girl starts to fall for the boy*

Exactly one month later:
Girls friend: I think its time you break up.
Girl: Okay.. (secretly doesn’t want to but is too afraid her friend will hate her if she said no)

Boy: Hey.
Girl: Hi.
Boy: Hows it going?
Girl: It’s fine.
Boy: Whats wrong?
Girl: I think we should break up..
Boy: What..?
Girl: We should break up.
Boy: Why..?
Girl: It’s just.. we never see eachother anymore..
Boy: I can change that.
Girl: I’ve never met your family..
Boy: I can change that.
Girl: I just don’t feel that way for you anymore..
Boy: I wish I could change that.
Girl: I’m sorry.
Boy: I know.
Girl: I have to go.
Boy: Thanks for trying..

The next day:
Boy: Hey.
Girl: I’m sorry..
Boy: No, I’m happy we broke up I could tell we weren’t going anywhere too.
Girl: Okay.

Freshman year:
Girl: (playing their song) I like him.. I have since we first started dating, but I can’t tell him; I can’t tell anybody.

Sophmore year:
Boy: (has a new girlfriend)
Girl: (playing their song) I like him.. I still do,.. but I can’t tell him, I can’t tell anybody.

Junior year:
Boy: (him and his girlfriend break up)
Girl: I like you. I always have and I always will.
Boy: I’m sorry, I like someone else.
Girl: (runs away crying)

The next day:
Boy: (finds a note in his locker)
Note: I told you I like you, but I was wrong. I ment I love you, but you don’t love me. I wish I could change that. I’m sorry for that day back in 8th grade. I really didn’t want to. I’m gone now, I’ve been sick for a while now. By the time you read this I’ll be in the hospital on life support. I just needed to tell you before I go; I love you. Don’t forget that.
Boy: (stares at the paper for a long time and runs down the hall„ he went to her house, but she wasn’t home)

The next day:
Boy: (goes to the hospital and tells the nurse who he wants to see)
Nurse: It seems she checked out yesterday.
Boy: She’s better?
Nurse: I’m afraid not. She had cancer and she passed away yesterday. I’m sorry.
Boy: (stares at the floor, he runs out the door and down the street)

The next day:
At her Funeral„
Boy: (asks to speak)
Boy: A few days ago I received a note from her. (he reads the note) and I wanted to tell her before she left that I loved her, I love her. I’ve loved her for a long time and there is nothing I can do now. Nothing. All I can say is I love you and now your gone.. I wish I could change that.
Boy: (starts crying and so does everyone else)

The boy ends up marrying her friend that told her to break up with him. When he found that out that she did that, he killed himself to be with the girl he really loved. He was 28.
Repost or you will have bad luck in love for 28 years.
Repost and somebody will tell you they love you tomorrow and you will get good news tonight at midnight.
Repost if you have a heart and want to find a cure for all serious diseases including cancer.. ♥
:/

Dear Santa,
All I want for christMas is my baby back. I miss him. He’s my world and I can’t live with out him. It hurts not to have him with me now.

The girl

So tue girl that walks down he hallway in school is hurt. Her heart is broken and she doesn’t trust anyone with her heart. Her heart is broken to the point where if she gives it away again it might break. She walks with a smile on but really on the inside she is frowning. Her heart hurts to the point where she cries her self to sleep. She has not found anyone that she trusts with her heart. Hopefully she will find someone who would treat her with love and won’t hurt her.